What Is WRONG With Me??

I have been enjoying the low-carb, weight-losing life for a couple of months now.  No dramatic weight loss for me, but slow and steady, and the overall feeling of good health and slow shrinkage has been driving me forward.  Really, once you get past the initial CRAP feeling, it is quite nice.  And once you figure out how to substitute some low-carb dessert options, it’s very manageable.

So WHAT happened to me today?  Today was the first day of “school.”  I no longer work in a school with students, but rather I work in the administrative offices of a Board of Cooperative Educational Services.  I supervise teachers and run some other educational programs.  Today my teachers came back and it was all good.  They are delightful to work with (usually) and today was not a big deal.  Yet, today I have eaten about 1900 calories. NINETEEN HUNDRED CALORIES!  I would like to blame stress, but I'm not sure it fits this time.

I know that as a low-carb Atkinsite, I should not be counting calories but carbs.  However, I’m a counter.  I’ve admitted that before on this blog.  So I count calories, carbs, glasses of water…. I can’t help it!  So, in case you were wondering, today I’ve had 52 carbs.

I do not believe in a “calories in/calories out” weight loss platform.  I do believe that carbs count and the hormonal impact of WHAT you eat is more important than how much.  BUT, that said, the how much can’t be too much!  At some point on the continuum of calories vs. quality, the calories matter. I was not overly hungry when I came home.  I had even stopped for a diet Coke on the way home (it was very hot here today) and grabbed a pack of mixed nuts to make sure that I did not enter the kitchen starving.  That tip was reinforced today on Jimmy’s podcast today with Nell Stephenson that I listened to this morning on my way to work.

But then I proceeded to eat 2 range free eggs cooked in coconut oil with a little Swiss cheese, 4 (yes 4!) sausage links, a half piece of Mastroianni whole grain bread with grass-fed butter AND a few fried red potato pieces.  I’m sick just thinking about it.

I cannot dwell here.  That’s why I’m blogging tonight.  I need to leave this at the alter of my readers in true-confession style and make tomorrow another day with better (and fewer!) choices.  Thanks for letting me get that off my chest!

Stay tuned.  I need to turn this ship around, folks, and I will need support.  Please cheer me on!!