February 28, 2011

Wake up:  5:00 AM

6:45 AM – Iced Coffee

8:30 AM – Root Beer “Float”

11:15 AM – Omelet – 2 eggs, Swiss cheese, Boar’s Head Sweet Slice ham, cooked in coconut oil, 2 squares Chocoperfection Bar

2:00 PM – Leftover office “Munster Chicken” (4 pcs – like chicken nuggets with cheese melted on top), Miniature Mr. Goodbar

5:30 PM – 4 tortilla chips, 1/3 pound Angus burger with Swiss cheese, sugar snap peas, NSA pickles, Divine Dark Chocolate, Breyers Ice Cream Bar

43 g carbs/ 1595 calories/121 g fat/ 74 g protein

Today was incredibly stressful, as indicated above with this food log – I didn’t plan for a lunch which normally wouldn’t have been a bad thing, but I work in an office that frequently has conferences and when the attendees finish off their catered lunches, the leftovers get brought to the kitchen for we vultures to clean up!  So, I had a few pieces of the chicken which is wonderful – breaded so not carb free.  Then we had candy in the office for our big event this weekend, and I had one.  Of course, I always have SF or very dark chocolate which is a problem.  So I have been carb-picking today and not sure if I should freak out about it or chalk it up to doing the best I can under the circumstances!

My “diet” started a year ago this weekend.  The upcoming weekend is our BIG tournament.  And last year at this time I was out of control with my eating leading up to the tournament, and my weight was knocking on 200 again.  I decided that after the Tourney, things were going to change.  That was the beginning of this journey.  I was hoping to hit –25 pounds by this Saturday.  That won’t happen, but I should be happy with the –22 pounds and make this year different by not blowing the week and giving into the stress!  It’s amazing that I can go through an entire day and not even breathe!  Not even take a breath or be aware of eating and drinking.  I have to increase awareness and be more mindful.  Note to self.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Oops – forgot to blog yesterday!  Moving on!

Wake up – 8:00 AM

10:00 AM – Price Chopper Sunday Omelet – Eggs, Boar’s Head Sweet Slice ham & Swiss), diet Coke.

12:00 PM – Iced Coffee, square of Chocoperfection Bar

2:00 PM – Snowshoeing, about 1 1/4 hours

5:30 PM – Meat House Steak Tips, Cauliflower Mash, Sugar Snap Peas with butter, Strawberries with real whipped cream!!

Dinner was amazing!  It really felt indulgent.  Even my husband was raving.  The afternoon was so nice that we went snowshoeing with the dogs.  I don’t have my carbs & calorie counts today – oh well.

Defining Progress

I am a bit discouraged with my weight loss.  Actually, I’m a lot discouraged.  I have actually gained some weight this week.  Not a ton, for sure, a few 10ths of a pound, which keeps me bouncing around the same couple of numbers for weeks!  I have been trying some new things with my diet, and am blogging all of my meals and food consumption, and I don’t see the reason!  Frustrating.

Do I feel good?  Yeah, I feel great!  Lots of energy!  Do I have the horrible cravings of days gone by?  No, though I’d dive headfirst into a brownie, given the chance, I really don’t think about it all that much.  And as for NSV (Non Scale Victories), I bought 3 new pairs of pants this week in a misses size 16 (as opposed to a woman’s size 16 – big difference), I “feel” smaller.  I think I even walk differently – less like a fat lady and more like a regular person.

So that’s where I am.  Frustrated at the scale and yet thinking that something’s changed – like maybe the scale isn’t mirroring exactly the changes that are going on inside.

On the home front, since I last checked in my young daughter has been diagnosed with Coeliac Disease which has required a gluten-free diet.  My old daughter has been diagnosed with insulin resistance, prescribed Metformin, and has extremely high triglycerides – not good for the ripe old age of 20!  So, these two diagnoses in the course of 2 weeks, along with my own low-carb lifestyle prompted a full-fledged kitchen cleaning this week.  So now there is only one box of GF cereal in the house, no crackers, no pasta, no bread crumbs, no bread (but GF wraps and Flat-Out wraps) and I’ve even dumped the hot chocolates and mocha’s (so sad!).  The only “cheat” food that’s left are the tortilla chips which both my young daughter (who does not have a weight problem) and my husband enjoy and since they’re GF, they can stay.  My husband has not balked at any of these changes, which I have really appreciated.  He is my cheerleader in this journey.

Thanks for stopping by, and any input appreciated in the comments below!