Golly, I’ve been away from the ol’ blog for quite a while now. And in that time, my food-journey has been colorful. Let me recap:
- Post-Paleo (ended October 31, 2010) – once this ended, I attempted to stay low-carb but went off the rails more than once (per day!)
- Thanksgiving 2010 – took a day for all things I love: Mashed potato, pumpkin pie, cranberry sauce, etc. Once the pie was gone (and it went down the hatch!), I was pretty back on track.
- December 4, 2010 – Joined our Weight Watchers at work group. WHAT? I know! I don’t know what I was thinking. I’d heard about WW changing their plan and thought I could do it. I was encouraged by my therapist to take a more “balanced” approach, since I have a tendency to obsess over the low-carb ideals…
- December 18, 2010 – lost 2.2 pounds on WW, and then went COMPLETELY OFF THE RAILS which lasted until last night. I baked, I ate, I baked some more, I had pasta, potatoes, chocolate, white chocolate, peppermint bark, popcorn…did I mention what a good baker I am? I’m exquisite! But might I mention that, to me, sugar is a drug. The more I have, the more I want, the less real food I care about eating.
So that’s my story in a nutshell. It’s the story of my life, really, condensed into a 6 week snapshot. While I appreciate my therapist’s view that I am a bit OCD in the diet realm, the fact of the matter is, for me, that I cannot eat a little bit of carbs! At least not the grain variety. Once I get on bread and baked goods (sugary or not), it’s all over. Today I feel bloated, my tummy is round and hard, my jeans are tight. I will have to get on the scale tomorrow and whether it is up or the same, the fact remains that I must be low-carb.
Of course, I’ve paid my “dues” to WW and will continue to join with my co-workers each Tuesday night for the next 10 weeks. I will not be counting my Points Plus, however, I will be counting carbs. I want to support my co-workers and cheer them on, even though I know that they are on a failing path (not my opinion, this is scientifically proven fact).
I have been on vacation this week, and have spent some of my time catching up on some reading and watching that I’ve fallen behind on, like I have been watching my YouTube friends, I have watched Tom Naughton’s Fat Head movie (thankfully, it is now on Hulu.com), I encourage you to watch it! I was gifted a BEAUTIFUL Nook Color by my loving husband this Christmas and the first book I purchased with it is Why We Get Fat, and What To Do About It by Gary Taubes. I am really enjoying that book. I keep trying to picture my arteries becoming inflamed when I ingest carbs….trying to remember what I believe to be true. It’s not easy with that sugar calling me from the kitchen!
I know I complain about this journey more than I should. I want to take a reflective moment and pat myself on the back for the 20 pounds lost in 2010. I was reading Gary Taubes last night when I got into bed and before turning out the light, I went to the kitchen and tossed a pound of truffles, a half pound of white chocolate Bliss candies, and some M&M’s. Time to make 2011 the last year that I resolve to lose weight! My pre-resolution for 2012 is to keep off all of the weight that I will lose this year!
Won’t you join with me?
Happy New Year all!
